Jaclyn Marie » venting

First Week & Some Other Stuff

Jaclyn — Sun, 24 Jan 2010 04:23:03 +0000

First week of college was pretty good. Loads of homework, but overall a nice experience. Most of my professors seem really nice and almost all of my classes have a good group of people. OF course, there is always an exception. I’m taking an education class that is combined with psychology and the group of people there are HORRIBLE. They’re much older than me, and much more serious. You know a group is blah when the professor asks them to lighten up. It was misery. The worst part is the class is three hours long, but only on Mondays. Of course, now I dread Mondays. I made an appointment with the psychologist and another appointment as well. I have to make a dental appointment soon.

On another note, I had a blowout with my boyfriend. Things are difficult. When we started dating he’d do simple gestures that let me know he cared. He thinks it has to be with money but you know, he could prepare a meal for me as a surprise, or leave a handwritten note for me, or any other sweet, simple thing just showing he cares. And aside from this, his commonly used hostile tone when he’s upset and the fact that he is getting so upset so frequently with me lately have really gotten to me. I loved him because he was so kind, gentle and patient with me, because he always made me feel loved. Well tonight we started arguing because I was very upset with the fact that he bought “us” a video camera that:

He never brings to record stuff with me. I have to be the one to remember it.
He asked for it a couple of weeks ago because his family told him to get it to take to the beach. I also had to use it to record some games because his mom couldn’t go.
He lent it to his sister, without even asking me (as he also failed to do for the beach), for her to take to Disney.

…and on that trip his sister “dropped it, broke it, but fixed it.” Her words. I told him I didn’t want to use that camera anymore because of those reasons. I never got a say in when people could take it, I never dropped it myself and I’m simply angry that something for us has become a family (HIS family) item. Also, keep in mind this is the sister I lent my Wii to and she returned it; without batteries in either controllers or WiiFit Board, and missing one of the safety locks for the controller.

Ahh. Got that out. So yeah, let’s see what happens with all this.

Oh! Almost forgot, I fell on campus this week. Picture below.

i guess this always happens

Jaclyn — Sat, 09 Jan 2010 02:05:07 +0000

Today I went to my boyfriend’s Championship game in a local tournament. Afterward, we were going to his house for a while. When he picked me up, the first thing he did was talk to me in a kind of agitated tone but I decided to not pay much attention to it. When we got to his house we found out his brother was using one of his family’s cars to go to the capital of our Country, where I wanted to go tomorrow as well. Instead of boyfriend finding out an alternate way for us to make our trip he just immediately told me we couldn’t go. It’s the sixth time, more or less, we reschedule this trip in the last month. Aside from this, it also hit me that I’ve been wanting to go the that city for a while now to see the historical part of town because I love it and haven’t been there in years, but as always no one is ever available to take me. I’m pretty frustrated right now because I really like seeing historical places and beautiful outdoor spots and no one ever takes me anywhere. I mean, my boyfriend could at least do that. But I guess it’s too much to ask. Whatever, I’m out.

I wanted a site to vent freely

Jaclyn — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 00:33:35 +0000

Sadly, this is almost impossible. Every though I originally wanted a website to be able to talk real issues anonymously, I’m limited to what I can post because of who might read it. I guess one day I’ll be able to talk freely about a lot of things. I wonder how many people have encountered this same problem…