“I’ll be there for you through it all even if saving you sends me to Heaven. ‘Cause you’re my true love, my whole heart; please don’t throw that away.

Please don’t walk away, please tell me you’ll stay.” – Red Jumpsuit Apparatus “Your Guardian Angel”

He dedicated that song to me. I guess his whole heart changes once in a while. How can it be over? It just can. I suppose sometimes we fool ourselves into believing we’ve found “the one”, and fool them in the process. I suppose sometimes our hearts make us believe something that’s not true, just to make something temporary feel eternal. This is the only explanation.

“I don’t know that love changes. People change. Circumstances change”. — Nicholas Sparks

Maybe he changed. I changed, but I don’t believe I changed in a way that would be negative for our relationship. Maybe his love for me wasn’t as everlasting as he thought, and made me think it was as well. Time is a test and maybe we failed. I want to believe, but how can I when he doesn’t even know what he feels for me? He has no hope…how can I have hope for him? Even in my most troublesome times I also assured him I would come back to him, because that was where I belonged. I guess he has to find that place, because it is not in me. Today, on day 3, I have accepted that. He is my whole heart, he is my home; he needs to find his own. I will always love him, but I have to heal. Today, I start trying to learn to be his friend. Today, I start to close that wound.