Jaclyn Marie

Every second we share with someone is a moment in which we are capable of creating art. We have the tools to make a memory, an impact; to inspire, to move, to captivate. In a moment you can impact in a way that what you make someone feel will be immortalized in a story, a poem, a painting, a movie, a song; in art, protected carefully forever so everyone can have a chance to feel the feeling you left. They have the chance to see themselves in the shoes of the person you inspired; to feel your presence in their lives after your soul and your corpse have been separated for eternity.

Next time you have a moment to share with someone, think of this. Make that moment worth remembering, worth immortalizing. Make that moment mean something; make it beautiful, worthwhile. Make that moment forever yours.

My boyfriend threw me a surprise birthday and he went ALL out. Amazing decorations, cupcakes forming a 19, and a Coldstone cake just for me & him & personal friends who will share on Monday haha. It was amazing, really. But as always, something goes wrong. People want to be the center of attention ALWAYS, and don’t understand that once in a while it isn’t about them. It’s kind of sad some people are so desperate. I didn’t have that much of a good time because of the venomous people that surround me; except three friends who are always sweethearts. Aside from them, some just wanted alcohol, others just wanted attention and others decided to be antisocial with everyone else. So I discovered I’d rather have a pizza party with my itty bitty selection of friends and play domino’s and Call of Duty all night long. I guess I know how I’ll spend my 20th! Lesson learned, actually a handful of them. Good day to all!

First week of college was pretty good. Loads of homework, but overall a nice experience. Most of my professors seem really nice and almost all of my classes have a good group of people. OF course, there is always an exception. I’m taking an education class that is combined with psychology and the group of people there are HORRIBLE. They’re much older than me, and much more serious. You know a group is blah when the professor asks them to lighten up. It was misery. The worst part is the class is three hours long, but only on Mondays. Of course, now I dread Mondays. I made an appointment with the psychologist and another appointment as well. I have to make a dental appointment soon.

On another note, I had a blowout with my boyfriend. Things are difficult. When we started dating he’d do simple gestures that let me know he cared. He thinks it has to be with money but you know, he could prepare a meal for me as a surprise, or leave a handwritten note for me, or any other sweet, simple thing just showing he cares. And aside from this, his commonly used hostile tone when he’s upset and the fact that he is getting so upset so frequently with me lately have really gotten to me. I loved him because he was so kind, gentle and patient with me, because he always made me feel loved. Well tonight we started arguing because I was very upset with the fact that he bought “us” a video camera that:

• He never brings to record stuff with me. I have to be the one to remember it.
• He asked for it a couple of weeks ago because his family told him to get it to take to the beach. I also had to use it to record some games because his mom couldn’t go.
• He lent it to his sister, without even asking me (as he also failed to do for the beach), for her to take to Disney.

…and on that trip his sister “dropped it, broke it, but fixed it.” Her words. I told him I didn’t want to use that camera anymore because of those reasons. I never got a say in when people could take it, I never dropped it myself and I’m simply angry that something for us has become a family (HIS family) item. Also, keep in mind this is the sister I lent my Wii to and she returned it; without batteries in either controllers or WiiFit Board, and missing one of the safety locks for the controller.

Ahh. Got that out. So yeah, let’s see what happens with all this.

Oh! Almost forgot, I fell on campus this week. Picture below.